Hard Surprise lyrics

i'm killing myself slowly way too fucking slow you never see my weakness i never let it show buried so deep inside me i can't remember where on my way straight to hell and i'll wait for you there where can i find the answers i've looked everywhere drugs, religion, sin and penance i've tried them all they're not the cure i've been beaten down by life but i'me still fighting abck i want to die with dignity keep your tears i'm on track destined to go nowhere determined to get there first where can i find the answers i've looked everywhere drugs, religion, sin and penace i've tried them all they're not the cure