By A Thread (I Suspend) lyrics

Fuck what you seem to recall Go back to sleep Ill intentions call me by my first name Honesty's deported, everything's unsorted I can't pretend anything's on course, I fail myself Looking back, I forced this on myself Remorse is all that I have kept despite the corpses in my mind I just suspend Still withering in this ruin I forgot to mention that I've lost interest in rebuilding peace All false idols never know The cost of what you do You'll always just be full of fucking shit By a thread, I'm still suspending up I just wonder, am I moving on? Still, I'm suspending on the chord I should have cut before With all of my defiling traits I showed to all of the world Wishing I could curse this off one someone worse I wonder if I'll end up as the first to parish all For nothing but this I'm crippled with this Sense of regret Time after time, I just can't fucking stress enough That the blood in me boiled I fought it off, following nothing, I felt the cut Don't you fucking forget it you cunt Gasping for air but it won't fill my fucking lungs Still, I won't beg for abetment Failing to learn, failing to express myself You just watch off in the background