Hold Back lyrics

A collection of truths strategically placed a horde of mysteries and some fears faced a raging battle under calm and serene often saying what I think but not often what I mean I need to see reality so I know that it's not just a dream and I lay my cards out for everyone but I never am quite what I seem I hold back take hold of dares as though you're almost done as if it's the last thing that you'll ever do and I will always run because a misguided guide I am an ignorant lead I never know what I want but I'll tell you exactly what I need Verse 3 and I see you smile and it makes me nervous and while I'm laughing the truth is I don't know how to do this i have no idea of what's okay no matter who you are but you'll never get to know because I'll never get that far