كلمات Afraid To Try Again

I met someone who smiled like you And it shook something loose in me But I held my breath and turned away Like love was some disease I’ve built my life in quiet rooms Where the light don’t ever stay I’ve learned to keep the doors half-closed So no one asks to stay I'm afraid to try again Not 'cause I don’t feel But 'cause I feel too much And none of it ever heals I’ve seen good things fall apart Heard soft words become knives So I stay where it’s safe On the edge of a life You said you wouldn’t break me But so did everyone before So I smiled like I believed you Then slowly closed the door I'm afraid to try again Not 'cause I don’t believe But 'cause belief betrayed me When I needed it to leave I’ve kissed futures I never had Held hands that turned to air Now I sleep beside my silence Too tired to even care It’s not you, it’s not them It’s the ghosts I never mend And the way I disappear Every time, love tries again