كلمات Repulsive Arousal

The dream spills inside Forcing its way in me Horrified of what took place Of what just transpired A cloud of vague shame lurks A trace in the corners Fades into obscurity upon awakening Impassive figure towers about me Changing faces rapidly Upside down, my head is tilted Expressionless, I surrender Light shoves the filth back into the corners of my mind Feigned, perverted normalcy Blind spots get me through the day Until midnight approaches once again Violated, a sickening pleasure Disgusted by the fantasy Mind conquered by lawless desire Sublimated by lack of memory Blackness turns to grey upon consciousness Shadows shrink as daylight hits my retina Forgetful, I awake Towering figure reappears Larger than the night before Millisecond glimpse of that everchanging face I freeze in repulsion, the revelry Nausea mingled with excitement I take him in completely