Alive, Always lyrics

There's puke on the floor There's a knife in the puke There's vodka on the table in the corner of my room And I'm not supposed to be here I don't know what to do I never planned this far I get up and go to school I leave after first to try again Skin's too thick I give up Never told anyone Alive always Only forward Born again You left me here Alive always It'll never be enough The hardest thing you've ever done And you just can't help yourself I wish you were someone else