Illusion lyrics

In an empty room Inside a haunted house I waste, away Nothing getting in There’s nothing coming out I fade to grey All the memories I’ve been pushing out of my head I need to face the pain, I never did But if I open this door I won't really know what’s ahead I don’t know how to feel, afraid to live I wanna shut my eyes I wanna live inside the dream, awake But when I close my eyes It's just a twisted mess I can't escape All the memories I keep pushing out of my head I want to face the pain, I never did But if I open this door I won't really know what’s ahead I don’t know how to feel, afraid to live Running from the heartbreak of the night It's an illusion of a life I tremble with desire Strangling the grief out of the light It's an illusion of a life I long to feel the fire All the memories I keep pushing out of my head I need to face the pain