Songtext von open house

I'm sick of this open house My friends are not my pals They all swarm in and out And I just wanna be alone 'Cause death sits on my mind A fraction of the time They say that love is blind But I don't think they really know I escape the ceiling of my brain Feelings are unspoken when I'm tokin' in the rain Easier to ignore all the pain I bet you would do it too If you were just as insane as me Contain my drinking I wish I could just stop thinkin' Pick my body up, I'm sinkin' I just stared as you kept blinkin' It wasn't always like this Lately I've been feelin' sorta lifeless Lie awake at night tryna fight this But I can't escape the pain so I write this Song for a girl that'll never give a damn Or a boy that's a friend that'll never understand Or a mom that's confused about her son and where I am Or a deadbeat dad that's just watching from the stands I'm sick of this open house My friends are not my pals They all swarm in and out And I just wanna be alone 'Cause death sits on my mind A fraction of the time They say that love is blind But I don't think they really know I don't think they really know a thing about it So maybe you should go just dip like shit Like you don't really care 'bout me or him If I end it all tonight does that mean you win?