Songtext von Wishful Thinking

Hateful eyes staring back at me They scream revulsion like I'm a fucking disease Self-hate has completely consumed me And it comes as no surprise, I think I want to die Has my luck run out? Haunted by these voices, I don't have any doubts Now there's nothing left to hide Sometimes I want to die Get these ghosts out of my head Get them out, get them out, get them out Let me tell you something about hating yourself It brings with it a lifetime full of agony Of broken promises and broken dreams And you know what they say about misery That fucking cunt just loves her company And no one could have predicted this At twenty-eight, my life's a goddamn mess Tried my best, tried to be stronger I hope this bullshit doesn't last much longer I never meant for you to see The awful bit of darkness locked up inside of me I buried it deep along with my fears And promised not to let it out after all these years And I'd do anything to bring myself back to life 'Cause the whole time I wanted to die All I ever wanted was to feel alive Hateful eyes are staring back at me They scream revulsion like I'm a fucking disease Self-hate has completely consumed me And it comes as no surprise, I think I want to die I am nothing Nothing more than a common disease Less than nothing A fucking parasite who's just dying to feel I am nothing Nothing more than a common disease Less than nothing A fucking parasite, a fucking parasite I never meant for you to see The awful bit of darkness locked up inside of me I buried it deep along with my fears And promised not to let it out after all these years And I'd do anything to bring myself back to life 'Cause the whole time I wanted to die All I ever wanted was to feel alive Feel alive