Songtext von Heartbeat

As they listen to my heartbeat As timid as how I pronounce I'm so sorry For making you all come out Don’t know what happened Seems my mind Thought it would be fun I’ve been holding so dearly to a light As brilliant as the Sun I am mystified I'm here at all Can’t tell you what this act is But I know it’s my fault My fault And I know its all in my brain But this brain of mine Doesn’t distinguish types of pain And tomorrow will be yet another day Where I struggle with the same With wobbly knees and a manic brain I try to stand but I stray Oh nurse why are you so kind Gentle voices cooing my feeble mind But I just watch their mouths move And keep my thoughts in solitude For if they only knew My life goes on too soon And I know its all in my brain But this brain of mine Doesn’t distinguish types of pain I'm sorry you had to find out this way I should have told you but I was ashamed Oh please don’t go I'm selfish I know But can’t keep pretending that I'm not in control Oh please don’t go I know you’re terrified But I promise I’ll try harder every Second of this life For I know its all in my brain And it’s treatable now all the doctors say And mom I’ve felt so alone I’ve felt so afraid That I’ve been losing to something I could not state And I never wanted you to see me this way I wanna be strong like you I wanna be brave But for years I’ve struggled with my brain And I thought admitting it meant I couldn’t be those things And I never wanted you to see me this way I wanna be strong like you I wanna be brave But for years I’ve struggled with my brain And I thought admitting it meant I couldn’t be those things