Songtext von Dem-O Lovato

I can't remember if I slept last night 'Cause my delusions always blur the line So when I'm drifting out of consciousness I feel my blood, as thick as mud, begin to clog my vacant veins And then it all makes sense And I start to convince myself you moved away Just so you could get away from me I know it's probably all hysterics But I can't help it It keeps me up It's when I'm walking by your house at night I still make sure not to close my eyes In case you somehow reappear Shit-faced, sitting on your front porch, and I try hard to get myself up out of bed, but it's gotten so much harder Without your arms to pull me upright in the morning When I see you in my dreams, you bite You tear out the pipe bomb trapped inside of my chest and you put it back This time, tethered to the right side I'm doing my best to let you do everything that you claim that you need to But I just keep breaking And my face is turning blue I have this fear of dying premature I'm scared I'll meet my casket long before I should That's why I'm petrified in public I know that anyone could pull out a gun and shoot me point-blank in the face I know these nightmares don't make sense But I have to confess that though I've learned to think I still can't shake the surreality, and yes I know you probably won't hear me out I don't expect you to if it puts you down It's when I'm walking by your house at night I still make sure not to close my eyes In case you somehow reappear Shit-faced, sitting on your front porch, and I try hard to get myself up out of bed, but it's gotten so much harder Without your arms to pull me upright in the morning When I see you in my dreams, you bite You tear out the pipe bomb trapped inside of my chest and you put it back This time, tethered to the right side I'm doing my best to let you do everything that you claim That you claim that you need to But I just keep breaking And my face is turning blue You can catch me on the back deck, blowing my life away As we watch the smoke ascend along with all of our responsibilities