Songtext von Notepad

I'm going to sleep now Bet they must think I'm weird 'Cause sometimes my eyes tear up suddenly You ask me what happened to make me feel like this But in reality, it's several things That got jammed up in here for me to deal with (They hold me in a prison) When I recall it, I cry Supposedly for no reason I can't take off, well, at least I tried It's just that when I look at my parents I'm sure that I'm lonely Maybe some people cry 'cause their parents made them wash the dishes Or didn't fulfill their useless wishes But I just didn't want my parents to laugh at me When I came home crying after school almost daily I wanted my mom not to call me dangerous and crazy Not to mock my disorder And then say that there's nothing wrong with me Changing her mind whenever it suits her I don't want to have children But if I had one Oh, dear imaginary kid I promise I wouldn't be like this (I swear I wouldn't) I'm fucking sad Convincing myself that the past stays in the past That not everything is so bad Then more and more words in my notepad Notepad Notepad Notepad I wish I were numb Instead of dumb Notepad Notepad Notepad I wish I were numb Instead of dumb I wanted not to feel anything Unfortunately or fortunately I feel everything I wanted to be insensitive And I'm extremely sensitive Or maybe this is all injustice And I'm just acting humanely Notepad Notepad Notepad Notepad Notepad Notepad