Songtext von Positive

Make me, make me sweat till I'm wet, till I'm dry but then wipe this tear from my eye haven't felt this warm in a long time even out in the bright sunshine in a lifetime of springtime I fall into your arms with my heart pumpin' on like a bubblin' dub treck like a garlicy hot tongue and lip smack I did some contemplation before we got down to this consecration maybe baby somethin in your kiss said it was an impetous, for me to re-think this. If I love you, then I better get tested make sure we're protected I walk through the park dressed like a question mark Hark! I hear my memory bak in the back of my brain, makin' me insane ... ...like cocaine. (chorus) But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive? Is it gonna be a negative? but how'm I gonna live my life If I'm positive? It dawned on me, it seemed to me this is unusual scenery, this red light greenery make me feel kinda dreamery, thinkin'how I used to be Arrive at the clinic walk through the front door take a nervous number then I think some more about all the time that I neglected makin sure that I was protected. They took my blood With an anonymous number two weeks waitin' wonderin' I shoulda done this a long time ago alot of excuses why I couldn't go I know these things and these things I must know 'Cause it's better to know than to not know! (chorus) I go home to kick it in my apartment I try to give myself a risk assessment the wait is what can really annoy ya everyday's more paranoya I'm readin' about how it's transmitted some behavior I must admit it. who I slept with, who they slept with, who they, who they, who they slept with. I think about life and immortality what's the first thing I do if I'm H.I.V. have a cry and tell my mother get on the phone and call my past lovers I never thought about infectin' anotha all the times that I said "Hmm? Don't bother." Was it really all that magic? the times I didn't use a prophalactic Would my whole life have to change? or would my whole life remain the same? sometimes it makes me wanna shout! all these things too hard to think about a day to laugh, a day to cry a day to live and a day to die 'till I find out, I may wonder but I'm not gonna live my life six feet under (chorus)