Under My Skin lyrics

My heart beats a little faster So loud I'm shaking in my head For no reason And it hurts like a needle God I hate myself For no reason Quiet Screaming Calm down with your breathing So I'll take two and I'll keep you here Deep under my skin Because it's not what I want from you But it's what I'm used to I'm a handgun with blood drawn Out here shooting myself And it's not what I want to do But it's what it comes to I'm stressed and yes I know I'm overweight 24 and it's really only getting worse To give up or get hurt I'm just gonna let it hurt So I'll take two and I'll keep you here Deep under my skin Because its not what I want from you But it's what I'm used to I'm a handgun with blood drawn Out here shooting myself And it's not what I want to do But it's what it comes to I don't want to I don't have to I don't want to I don't have to I don't want to I don't have to I don't want to I don't want to