Speck lyrics

You want me to explain How I've been struggling And how my self esteem Has fallen out of bed Inside I feel a mess My thoughts betray me I keep thinking time has passed When the hour has stayed the same I am fucking low And it hurts far too much to be dead And you're so beautiful And I'm nothing more than a speck I'm starting to feel small 'Cause you're much bigger than me I watched how you grew tall While sitting in your chair My heart keeps acting up It's pretty scary Am I really what you want I wish I didn't care Please don't get me wrong But somehow it's beginning to hurt I just don't think it's fair How you silently speak through my words, my words I think I've said too much I feel so emotional I'm so stupid it must make you sick To even believe in me Are you even there Have you been feeling low? Are you weaker than you will admit? I think you're beautiful But one day my face you'll forget 'Cause I'm nothing more than a speck I'm seeing you for the first time For the first time You're seeing me for the last time For the last time