Disappear lyrics

Disappear from everyone I hold so close to me Fade away into the night And hope it takes away the pain If I fall asleep forever For better or for worse At least I won't be awake To feel the guilt and regret I always knew I can't even cry If I wanted to And I'm sorry that I lie When I talk to you I don't remember The last time I smiled And meant it I can't remember The last time I felt something real