Convoluted lyrics

Burning up, was it good to tear it down? Convoluted thoughts inside of me So far, so fast, so long and so what? I guess I should grateful to be free Well I'm not looking forward, and I'm not looking back I'm stuck here in the middle and I'm off the beaten track And I don't know where I'm going But the road to better days seems far away Shattered illusions cut deep when you believe And even tough guys fall when it seems real Sit here quite the psycho thinking of what was This wasn't supposed to be part of the deal Well I'm not looking forward -- I know I can't go back I'm stuck here in the middle and I'm off the beaten track And I've got a perfect life laid out in front of me With memories of you It's not betrayal -- it's just the truth Wish I could learn to move on If it hadn't been so great I might not feel so down Guess you were right to move on Tried to pass it off like I feel fine A pain that doesn't seem to fade with time Well I'm not looking forward, and I'm not looking back I'm stuck here in the middle and I'm off the beaten track And if I could buy oblivion, there's almost not a price I wouldn't pay