Original lyrics

EN

Here I am in California wondering If you’re still alive Thought I had escaped the pain That brought the rain and made me drive Past your house at night alone I reeked to death of alcohol Barbital is washing out my brain I fucked up and God I know it But can you at least let me try I feel so embarrassed even caring If you live or die Crying on the back porch while you Looked away and told me We’ll make it work or won’t make it all Hey it’s me I’ve been thinking about you I hope you’re alright I miss you I do I wish you were here but I understand take care of yourself, ok? You need time, I know, but Jesus Is this all you think of me A portrait of my love in all White and on her knees I’ll go back to California Bleeding but I still survived Maybe you were never mine at all