Paroles de Love/ Hate

Misery loves company But I'd rather be alone My false romantic tendencies Have made themselves at home Like alcohol, these helpless thoughts Impair my mind My judgment may be gone But I'm sure that I'll be fine I'm not lost I'm just waiting I've been loved I've been hated I'm not well I'm just jaded I'm in love And I hate it Lullabies to sing at night As the walls watch me muse Of bluer skies and butterflies And mindless platitudes Bitter-sweetened memories Impair my brain But at least I've got my dreams To spare me pain while I'm awake I'm not lost I'm just waiting I've been loved I've been hated I'm not well I'm just jaded I'm in love And I hate it I'll be fine I'm just needy I don't mind I'm just bleeding Hope you're well 'Cause I'm still healing Why is love So misleading?