Crowd Of A Thousand lyrics

I'm losing the light inside of me Swallowed my tongue eternally Kept myself away from me I started the conspiracy Fading Caving in Everything that lifted me Has turned into dead currency And in this empty galaxy I take a hit for gravity I want so much To connect with anybody Reach out and choke myself Like mixing blood and honey I'm looking for light inside of me There's something there I can almost see Through all these clouds that cover me None of this seems real to me