Spite lyrics

At the core I despise myself Outside opinions and stinging precision I despise myself Strings winding through my skin Direct me Connected to a grin I'm forcing I really hate what I'm saying Send all my memories back with all the things I don't deserve Distraught dark thoughts back on I'm found frail Feeling like a walking stigma Lacking self esteem Finite fail Am I the only one against me Trusting a disease? Dark thoughts back on A little darker this time Anticipation of rejection I'm holding hands with self-doubt Hide the stigma I was not always this way Harem scare 'em! Send back all the things I'll only burn Watch me walking backwards I'm found frail Finite fail Am I only one against me Trusting a disease As I despise myself? I despise myself