An Ode to Breakdown lyrics

Lost Lost control Lost and gone Gone astray Don't know where to go Like I was wrong All along Only doubt Acting out Everything I knew is false I'll waste it all tomorrow Tomorrow I'll be gone Aiming lower, even lower Nothing, nothing but trouble In the void, I will follow Tomorrow I'll be done Aiming lower, always lower Enjoy my own nature Take it lying down To breakdown I need the pain The mark of cain As an open vein It happened again Fake Fake every smile Snake in the grass At a loss for any pledge At any cost near the edge Maybe I was wrong all along Maybe if this is where I belong Come hell or high water Do it like a self-harmer