Not Even Myself lyrics

I can't picture my own face with a smile And it's been like this for a while When the time comes to make a choice I can not hear the options It's hard to hear them over the sound of your own voice So cross my heart And slit my wrists I don't think that love exists And I can't trust no one Not even myself So black my eyes Tell me lies Couldn't believe them if I tried I can't trust nobody Not even my own body Not a day goes by where I don't miss you I just hate myself, I'd never diss you And I don't think I can take you back No, I would not dare risk that 'Cause losing you is just like losing part of myself When the time comes to make a choice I can not hear the options It's hard to hear them over the sound of your own voice So cross my heart And slit my wrists I don't think that love exists And I can't trust no one Not even myself So black my eyes Tell me lies Couldn't believe them if I tried I can't trust nobody Not even my own body