Sweet Misery lyrics

I've got dirt under my nails from trying to claw myself out Of this self pity induced holeI that I rolled down But don't lend a hand you'll end up where I am now Think I kinda like life when it's dark and ruin bound Anger's got a grip that I can't fight I'm a stone cold liar if I say I've tried Cause this cloud's been raining on me so damn long But that's relief to a man who calls a desert, home Good times left me in the cold I found peace where nothing grows Harvested the hurt cause the joy didn't Feed me enough as sweet misery Don't take me out to the light Can't lose a spark if you never shine Sick off the highs that almost killed me I need sweet misery Drinking up the feelings most people try to hide It's a strange way of living when sinking is keeping me alive I don't wanna leave what's dragging my happiness down Cause what am I then when everything I've known is washed out? I'm still gripping the shovel that got me here Fear if I let go I might disappear Cause we're only worth the weight of things we hold And all that I carry is a bag of bones Good times left me in the cold I found peace where nothing grows Harvested the hurt cause the joy didn't Feed me enough as sweet misery Don't take me out to the light Can't lose a spark if you never shine Sick off the highs that almost killed me I need sweet misery I don't care there's pieces left to mend Cause if I stay broke I can't be broken again I don't care there's pieces left to mend Cause if I stay broke I can't be broken again I don't care there's pieces left to mend Cause if I stay broke I can't be broken again