Burn The Ashes lyrics

i try to help myself i want to help myself i can't help myself cut away the sickness scrape away the blackened parts as i burn myself to ashes then burn the ashes silver cataract contemptible the tip of the hook so close to my skin once inside it starts to burn it starts to bleed my thoughts turn sour again time reveals that i never change i want to help myself but i keep falling backwards surrender is the only answer