I Wish I Wasn't Awake lyrics

I force myself to sleep It's useless Hopelessness burns my throat The thin damp sheets Feel so heavy I lost the value of this life Wishing to never wake again Into this painful nothingness Where promises rot Colors fade and flowers wilt My body aches I am so tired of the thoughts and whispers That pollute my tears An inescapable emptiness If only I could persevere To be more than a dimly lit memory Lost in stillness The days are my sighs This bed my solace I can't even begin to recall The number of times I wish I wasn't awake