On Dying Alone lyrics

I'm shaping shy shame into words, I'm tongue tied, left mouth dried and absurd, I know I can't drink it away You couldn't have been anyone, If I could choose from anyone..., I'm painting lime in shades of gray If I believed then I would pray that things would always stay the same, I know we're changing every day, I'm still afraid of dying alone, Is it absurd? I just don't know, My luck says I'll end up that way