I'm Not Allowed to Die Anymore 歌詞

I’ve been asleep since December I think I’ll freeze in this weather Is this the end that I chose? I'm fighting to keep myself sober When I wish my life would be over Is there a way I can do both? Everyone says that they need me How do I say I'm defeated? How do I tell them I'm bleeding? I'm just not happy anymore I wish that they never met me I wish that they could forget me And I wish that somebody’d let me So it won’t hurt them when I go The weight of the world on my shoulders Is heavier now that I'm older It’s selfish of me to let go My family’s broken and severed And I can’t keep us together I wish that I wasn’t alone What happens when I stop breathing? What happens when I'm the reason?