What Does it Mean to be Special? 歌詞

I wish I no longer felt like an empty shell If only I could know what it feels like to be loved If I could find an answer to the reason for your Abandonment I'd have a way not to feel so miserable I wish to find a reason to live, but there are no reasons to try and stay I wish to find a way to get back up But I'm so weak and I can't change that Will I ever be enough? Will I ever be free from this melancholy? I just want to rest And die knowing what it's like to be special Every tear I shed is the answer to the loneliness you condemned me to Tears that fall down my face, leaving me with no strength to move forward Hatred spreads through my chest, filling every empty corner And in that emptiness, only the shadow of what once existed remains