Apologetiparoxysm 歌詞

My shell is present but My minds light years away I need a substance to secure my anchor I dig and dig until I've dug myself a grave Where did it come from? This newfangled anger This persistent unfounded Annoyance is taking it's toll Any semblance of calm has corroded A psyche so sick and a soul so much sicker Delusion my only reprieve Listless callous numb Despondency's the flavor of the day A rapid shift in my Temperaments led me to sink To a depth of dejection at which I can't think through the mire malign In my mind I meander and pray that I stumble across some place safe But I won't, I'll remain in this prison Reinforce the cell walls and fire upon any Who try to help I'm a toxin too Comfortable covered in quills Listless callous numb Despondency's the flavor of the day Please forgive me I know I'm A nightmare and not myself I just can't shake this feeling Of impending doom and that Weight on my mental health Left me so detached With every respite from this odd Suspension I'm trapped in I see all the pain that I've caused and it Kills me inside so I put up a wall Further, exacerbating the problems And still entertaining this Listless callous numb