Illusions 歌詞

I never saw I never felt I never said Because I was nobody else I never had the chance I never had the permission I don't know what to say about it Because I was sttopped against my will I didn't wish this situation It's so sad to feel like this There were not doors to breakout from this way There was nobody to call I dreamed of being someone else This dream was utopia I had so many illusions But now everything has been destroyed My illusions seemed to be perfect I wasn't prepared for the fall This reality shock was strong Never thought I'd be torn apart I wish my illusions were real I was so connected to people outside I ended up forgetting myself I thought the world could be mine But there are racist molds that I don't fit into I really thought I would be accepted But I wasted so much time believing in people Now I don't believe in anyone, anymore I only believe in myself I don't want to waste my time with foolish illusions I only want good things that are important to me I don't want to live on illusions I want to live in real happiness I saw the bad side of the world I am sensitive to rudeness I don't want illusions ever again