I'm Not Dreaming lyrics

I was a soldier boy in the twilight of my youth When I still could feel love and a trust in above for the truth I fought with bravery, then I left my gun behind But the misery I've seen never wiped itself clean from my mind Now I never, ever close my eyes completely When I'm sleeping... I barely recognize the people that I knew The faces the same and I still couldn't name but a few If God isn't dead, then I'll kill him myself Cuz I've seen the worst, I'm not scared to just burst into hell Now I never, ever close my eyes completely When I'm sleeping, I'm not dreaming