Exile lyrics

I just want to lay myself down Drink the illusions and let it all float away Into the river of voices One of them will speak and tell me where to go I packed my thoughts and visions Headed for the light on the other side Although consoling was a myth The tunnel was a con I ran - but i never turned back I have deported my own life Into this foolish splendour I have brought the beauty of a soul Cold and dark as the last day Is the image of the dream That made it all worth-while In exile If there is a sign out there hiding Come to me now or forever hold your peace You'll find me in my room in the guesthouse Riding clouds that are hard to please When there is a fight i will be there It feels so good to do what one should not do And i play i gamble and stay I look - but i never turn back