Perfect Crime lyrics

I feel betrayed I'm feeling some type of way, but I know I won't be the one to call 'em out I'm super, I'm super swayed I'm used to being persuaded I've been pushed around this block once or twice And I I tried to push myself away this time Cause the old me would commit the perfect crime Trust me I know, I've seen it all, oh she's done it all I Can I just write this song for me this time 'Cause I always give myself up every time And say I'm fine I feel insane You know I tried to behave cause I'm so fuckin' done with playing stupid games I'm countin' I'm countin' days to make my social escape 'Cause I'm not good at confrontation anyway And I I tried to change myself this time around 'Cause I promised that I'd make the small me proud But who am I, kidding I've tried, a few hundred times I I'm fighting back these demons every day Do you really think I wanna live this way But I always stay And at the end of the day, I swear I promise I'll let the guiltiness fade, move far from it The girl who trades her soul to make their day And like a heart made of glass just please be gentle She's still just trying to find what makes her special She won't tell you but ask her anyway