Bottle Don't Love Me lyrics

Yeah I don't drink 'cause I'm happy I drink 'cause I'm tired of remembering Look I been pouring my feelings in a glass Watching demons swim Every sip another memory I pretend ain't sinking in She said, heal yourself But how when pain's my medicine? I talk to God when I'm sober But ignore Him when I'm drunk again Mirror looking back at me like Who you tryna be? I smile for the internet But cry in privacy Heartbreak got me numb I don't even feel the burn Till the bottle hit the bottom Then the feelings take their turn I chase sleep But insomnia be waiting on me 3 AM thoughts feel like they Staging a robbery I lost love, lost trust Lost pieces of my soul Now I'm finding temporary peace At the bottom of a hole The bottle don't love me But it listens when I speak It don't judge my tears It just weakens me each week I keep saying, last time Knowing damn well I'm lying If healing is a road I been drunk-driving through my silence Yeah I been drowning in myself Tryna numb the pain But I'm hurting someone else The bottle don't love me But it stays every night While you walked out my life, yeah I wear strength like armor But it's cracking at the seams They say, man up Never ask me 'bout my dreams I loved her like my last breath She left like it was nothing Now I'm drinking to forget her But remembering is stubborn Mama raised a fighter But I'm fighting me Every vice I touch Slowly turn into an enemy I don't need another shot I need therapy But liquor's cheaper Than admitting this pain is scaring me I tried praying it away But my faith been weak When your heart breaks loud Even silence start to speak If I die from my demons Don't say you never knew I was screaming for help In everything I do I don't want sympathy I want peace I don't want another drink I want sleep But every time I close my eyes I see her leaving again The bottle don't love me But it feels like a friend It pretends that it cares But it wants me to end I'm fighting addiction with a broken heart Tryna rebuild a soul that been torn apart If you hear this song and you feel the same Just know you ain't weak, you just feeling the pain The bottle don't love you And neither did she But you still got a chance Don't end up like me Yeah Pain talks Liquor listens But healing Healing takes courage