I Sit In Parks lyrics

I sit in parks, it breaks my heart 'cause I see Just how far I am from the things that I want Dad brought the picnic, mom brought the sunscreen Two kids are laughing and crying on red swings We look about the same age but we don't have same Saturdays Did I miss it? By now is it A lucid dream? Is it my fault For chasing things at body clock? Does it wait for a day the damn tour? What I want and what I got I spun around and then I stopped I'm wondering if I missed the mark So I sit in parks, sunglasses dark and I Hit the vape, hallucinate, a nursery with no azark They lay on a blanket and goddamit he loves her I wonder if she wants my freedom like I wanna be a mother But Rolling Stones says I'm on the right road So I refill my lexapro thinkin' Did I miss it? By now is it A lucid dream? Is it my fault For chasing things at body clock? Does it wait for a day the damn tour? What I want and what I got I spun around and then I stopped I'm wondering if I missed the mark Mm-mm Mm-mm So I sit in parks checkin' bench marks Terrence due in June, the album's due in March