And Then All My Hope Is Gone 가사

I will point a gun to my head Or a knife to my heart 'Cause death is the only way out My life is not worth Anymore I can't see a cure No way to set me free From this lack of joy That I feel Everything goes wrong I just can't understand I've gotta know the reason Why am I alive? I can't stand this anguish No need to pray for life No choice but Praying for death When things look fine And I'm ok Suddenly a desaster Ruins all of my plans And then all my hope is gone I tried suicide once more But I'm not man enough A coward, and I gave up No guts to face my death I"m just a loser I wish I was not weak I wish I was not me And then everything Would be ok I guess I could be strong And fight for what I want But it sounds So hard to me I can't stand this anguish No need to pray for life No choice but Praying for death When things look fine And I'm ok Suddenly a desaster Ruins all of my plans And then all my hope is gone All of my friends have tried to help me Well, I like 'em but they just don't know That I've refused all kinds of treatment It's hard to believe in my own life Self-belief is what I lack It's not an easy thing for me to get I'm unable to accept what is normal Afraid of defeat is how I feel Bad things happen to everyone They deal with them so fine What's the magic? I would like to know What to do! I wish I was not weak I wish I was not me And then everything Would be ok I guess I could be strong And fight for what I want But it sounds So hard to me I can't stand this anguish No need to pray for life No choice but Praying for death When things look fine And I'm ok Suddenly a desaster Ruins all of my plans And then all my hope is gone