Good At This 가사

You turned my men to swine, how fitting You think you're the witch here, darling But watch me work this room Your magic fails, now kneel And take a guess Where I'll sheathe this blade Say yes Finally something that doesn't hurt Tastes like honey, tastes like dirt I'm so good at this Finding new ways not to feel You're medicine Your emptiness But empty's better than what's real A year dissolved like sugar in wine My men are ghosts I've learned to lose You're the better bruise to choose Your bed's a war I always win Let me conquer Let me in Finally something I can control Your body's better than my soul I'm so good at this Finding new ways not to think You're medicine Your nothingness But nothing's better than the sink Wait How long have I been lying here? They look at me like I'm the pig You never changed me, I changed myself Into something easier to bear Someone anchored, going nowhere Taking bodies instead of care This isn't healing, this is hiding This isn't winning, this is drowning And I'm the one who chose the water Wake up Wake up Wake up Wake up I was good at this Too good at disappearing whole You're not medicine, you're sickness That I poured into my soul You kiss me goodbye like you knew all along The spell was never mine, was it? One more year just to stay numb No, I have to feel this