Contradictions 가사

She wants to go outside Tryna spark shit She’s got something in the glove compartment I don't know where your broke down car's been I'm with whatever though I never let it go She wants to step outside She's tryna talk more And God knows I've seen you distraught before But how could you tell me you're not sure? You'd still be the first one I'd call If I needed someone to talk to But I barely see you at all I don't see you at all Feels like a contradiction I need to step outside as soon as you walk in People talk when they see that we're talking I dip out in a rush I'm exhausted I glance at my phone to make sure that you called it I see your name on the dashboard You say I should try and relax some more Why am I stuck in the past for? I'd still be the first one you'd call If you needed someone to talk to But you barely see me at all You don't see me at all Feels like a contradiction Feels like I've had this thought before Feels like a loss of vision Whenever you talk I'll listen Your eyes could end the pressure Your smile clouds my thoughts some more On time that we spent together We could have been forever I don't know if I can hold it together My heart is turning cold with the weather It’s feeling like October Forever