the sadness in my smile 가사

I changed my mind, and [?] I'm never happy with myself I got demons on my self [?] I take over for my health I got liquor that might help For my money, fuck you up She's my heaven, but she leave me In the end, I'll be in Hell Fuck you, fuck that Cut my wrist again Fuck my bitch again Just another fuckin' day that I'm not happy with Suicidal wish My heart is [?] I hate myself, I hate my friends, I didn't come to this Changed my mind You're a fuck on my anxiety I'm not even reality I hate the society I think I'm a tragedy I feel like I'm floating in this heart, I fucking see My head kinda heavy and cold and it's hard to breathe I think this is goodbye