A War Inside 가사

We've been living up to meet our makers But I'm standing here with a crown of thornes Given to me by the man in the mirror With a crooked smile on his face The price we pay to live how we want to Is sacrificing one need to live up to another Why am I still in this rut My mind is a mess and my head is f***ed up The water is rising – it's filling my lungs Swimming or drowning – where's the difference? I know you can't see into my head But I am sick of dropping hints Why can't you understand? That in my head I see it clearly From dusk till dawn And birth to death It all makes sense That in my head I know where to go But I'm in war with myself Equally defining the thief and the brave The lust of a preacher, the mediocrity of a king It's like shots fired from a saint I am mess forming a man My body a vessel My heart is a void I am mess forming a man I still try to run away But you can’t outrun the crows That in my head I see it clearly From dusk till dawn And birth to death It all makes sense In my dreams There is no pressure No weight on my feet A healing of my Ever-present thoughts I'm hearing the silence I'm seeing just white Shapeless and empty A bliss just for a while I'm still hearing their voices at the back of my head Still feeling their glances up from above Why can't you stop following me I know I'm not, where I should be Not what I used to be, not what I should have been There is one thing you need to understand That is first I need to win The war inside my head