Growing Pains 가사

I take a breath and breathe it out Life has been a bitch holding onto me, I'm always freaking out I don't play well with others, I panic in a crowd And I'm quick to fall in love, that's why I'm always on the ground So pick it up Pop the umbrella over my problems And understand I'll never be a man until I solve 'em And sometimes I wish that I could go back home Yeah crawl into my childhood dreams and be alone And that would be everything-just another boy left with nothing An object of security slowly losing its stuffin' The Sumter Square slum king Looking for another motherfucking chance to re-break the broken in is something And that's the part I'm never going to get Growing up is more than just a mind state and owning all your debts Blowing out the breath I don't feel so tall So tell me how am I supposed to reach anything, anything at all Anything at all Tell me how, can I, grow to see the change in my life I wanted, to overcome the battle inside what is owed to anxiety's hold Is there a better way to figure it out? I sweep it all under the rug Cover up the loss found inside of me and wash it down with blood I was born with an option and taught to swim a flood But the older I become I start to humor giving up So pick it up Listen to all of the words in my head And understand I'll have a shaky hand until they're said And I don't know if I can get my mind state back But I would travel to the end just to feel that grasp And that would be everything, speak it through the can on the line And prophesied the future from the twinkle in my eye I could wrinkle up and die In that room where the dreams started talking to me constantly and dancing through the sky I'm alive, but growing up has proved to be a task And left a couple daydreams broken down and smashed Looking through the glass I don't feel so tall So tell me how am I supposed to reach anything, anything at all Anything at all Tell me how, can I, grow to see the change in my life I wanted, to overcome the battle inside what is owed to anxiety's hold Is there a better way to figure it out?