Disgrace 가사

I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved I try new things, but I can't change I pray forgiveness for my ways I wish that you would call me back But you left me in the darkness I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine Left me in the darkness I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead Feeling fucked up, I cannot escape Yeah I'm on the come up, might be something great Yeah it's finally time for me to make statements But, if I'm being honest, I hate this Yeah I never wanna speak dishonestly Yeah I never thought I'd see this side of me But I've been getting wasted every night Can't bare being alive I try so hard to numb the pain You found yourself, I can't relate I sabotage, burn everything I don't want this no I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved I try new things, but I can't change I pray forgiveness for my ways I wish that you would call me back But you left me in the darkness I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine Left me in the darkness I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead Yeah let down the ones I depend on I can't bare this I might end it all now Suicide note for everyone that I sinned on Let the water take me tonight I try so hard just to please you Sometimes I wish I could be you Normal life, yeah I want it right back And I, might make this my last time now I try so hard to numb the pain You found yourself, I can't relate I sabotage, burn everything I don't want this no I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved I try new things, but I can't change I pray forgiveness for my ways I wish that you would call me back But you left me in the darkness I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine Left me in the darkness I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead