First Heartbreak 가사

I wanna tell you I'm right here But I'm still so angry even after all these years I know your family was falling apart So I don't blame you, but I still have a heart All of my friends and my therapist say That it's nothing and I've gone insane Everyone says I'm a narcissist Truth is, I just haven't dealt with the blame You chose the drugs, and now everyone else is your friend And I'm left in the flame There's nothing like first heartbreak Know I should move on God knows I've tried But I hit this strange wall without you by my side We were forever, at one point in time The night you left me You left me half alive I started running, got faster and faster But I just couldn't get away All of my problems got bigger and bigger Until I couldn't feel the pain 'Cause you chose the drugs And now everyone else is your friend And I'm going insane There's nothing like first heartbreak Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh I had to lose you to find myself You can't know heaven until you know hell I'll always love you, even if you're gone I'm letting go but always holding on