Reluctantly Dead 가사

The blood on my hands is like drugs on my nose I've been confused with someone who's in control Of all the things that will happen anyway So I'll just continue on the path that I hate Cause I'm gonna find my way I've been grabbing at sand just to watch it slip away I put both my hands up and I started to pray That you ain't like me and you'll let me walk away But I'll understand it if you choose to kill me Would've probably done the same I would've probably done the same You believe that they came here to protect you But see I would rather run Cause now the law results in a death Once you understand that you've got control See I'd be confused for someone you'll never know Cause all of those things were gonna happen anyway Somewhere within you lies the one that you hate I'm gonna fuck myself today I'd rather fuck myself today You believe that they came here to protect you But see I would rather run Cause now the law results in a death You believe that they came here to protect you But see I am not the one Cause I will be reluctantly dead I'll never be alone again But do you realise you're my only friend I feel at home again Home again I'll never be a hooligan Yeah I feel that I'm my only friend I feel at home again (home again) And this is all pretend You believe that they came here to protect you But see I would rather run Cause now the law results in a death You believe that they came here to protect you But see I am not the one Cause I will be reluctantly dead