Self Destruction 가사

Ooh Wishing you well Even though you're with someone else And nothing but the numbness helps When there's nothing to do Stuck in my room with these thoughts of you Wishing you well Even though now you're someone else Couldn't tell you how it felt How much it hurts seeing you So different now its what distance will do Every second awake Every step that I take Is another one back Hoping one day you'll ask If I'm okay I'll tell you everything if you care to know What its like in this hell Hoping you're doing well So numb I cannot feel Anything but this guilt inside of me Blame myself for things I can't change All because of you I love the way that you fucked me Hate every something that we could have been Again and again and again and again Why can't you just love me for who I am Why am I always so fucking upset All of my pain and my love is the same It comes from a place with no one else to blame Other than me its all self inflected Wounds that bleed inside and no one can see Self destruction is such a beautiful thing How does it feel to watch me suffering How does it feel to watch me suffering while I'm Wishing you well Even though you're with someone else And nothing but the numbness helps When there nothing to do Stuck in my room with these thoughts of you Wishing you well Even though now you're someone else Couldn't tell you how it felt How much it hurts seeing you So different now its what distance will do Baby I'm wishing you well Scratching the walls in my cell The clarity rings like a bell If only I could say farewell To the winds that carry me And to the shadows that follow me They will treat you well Don't forget to carry me In your heart Feed my body to my enemies Wishing you well Even though you're with someone else And nothing but the numbness helps When there nothing to do Stuck in my room with these thoughts of you Wishing you well Even though now you're someone else Couldn't tell you how it felt How much it hurts seeing you So different now its what distance will do