Post-Nut Clarity 가사

I may just let it get worse Mocking bitter wounds in a hollow room A breathing meme distracting from reality How many Cs does that word need? With two Cs I should've asked for a name before I agreed I just can't unsee the words that left your body An abstract technicality, emotional fatality My boredom warped your soul Mistaking circumstance for love A marriage of convenience Losing sleep over sleep not lost It's always better for me when a loved one pays my cost Right here, with you, we discover what I am After the nut, I'm sitting in a rut Forced to remember people I could've sworn that I forgot Where am I? And who are you? And what in the world did I just do? Maybe I should find another way to cope Maybe I should lie and say that this lump in my throat That it isn't because of the groping And prodding Elated that fingers are hugging your larynx Recreational decay with victims that beg me to stay I know that you aren't the one who will undo my trauma Meaningless and hollow People shouldn't be borrowed But it helps me forget- my selfish decisions, they help repel my past Why is it, when I lie, an angel dies? No more connections for me No more people for me I just can't unhear you Soundwaves into action My vocal cords defeat me again Upside-down grins scream how I've been