With This Razorblade 가사

So it's over now And I'm not sure why I'm crying I guess it could have been more But my fears prevent me from trying Why does it hurt so much God, I never even had her to begin with I think I hate myself There's proof on my wrists and the bruises on my fists Why did I push her away I hope that she finds happiness Why does it always end this way I'm sorry that I'm such a mess God make me stronger I pray I should have never said I love you though I meant it So it's over now And I'm sweating and shaking and covered in tears I could have made this so much more But I'm slowly breaking from these useless fears Why did we even meet Were we meant to be something Do you see me as a freak God I hope she isn't hurting cause of me I'm nothing special I'm nothing at all Why did I push her away I hope that she finds happiness Why does it always end this way I'm sorry that I'm such a mess God make me stronger I pray I should have never said I love you though I meant it Everytime my heart beats my pain shows Everywhere she goes my love goes I can't take this feeling Hold me now I gave up before I tried I told the truth before I lied I smiled wide before I cried I lived in you until I died inside And with this razorblade I say goodbye With this razorblade I say goodbye With this razorblade I say goodbye Goodbye I'm sorry that I failed you I can't take this feeling Hold me now The darkness comes to take me My last thought will be of you Your beautiful face, the words you gave I should have never given up on you God save me, I'm such a fool