Heavy Moon 가사

I've been sleeping in 'til late Worried about what to say When friends ask me how I'm doing Just smile: I'm okay I'd hate to bring you down this rabbit hole with me Of unwashed clothes and bloodshot eyes And a head far too heavy I don't need your fucking sympathy Just want you to hate myself as much As much as I hate me I blame the heavy moon A cold shower to shock the nerves But that shit doesn't work When you can't feel anything anyway And that new leaf never turns I'm sick of feeling like I don't fucking fit in So I mark myself permanently And let the ink speak through my skin I don't need your fucking sympathy Just want you to hate myself as much As much as I hate (me) Grinding my teeth Feeling weak at the knees I shut my eyes But it seems like I keep twisting the knife They stop and they stare Just let me be When will this gloom stop looming over me? I blame the heavy moon Held down, not against my own will The bottom tastes better than I think it should It's intoxicating, but it kills anything inside that's good Admit it, not feeling alright I don't need your sympathy Going through these motions, it's just a part of life But it seems like I keep twisting the knife They stop and they stare Just let me be When will this gloom stop looming over me? I can't blame the heavy moon (Anymore)