Final Blow 가사

I live in a world of perennial darkness My eyes have forgotten the colors of life - no Pain desperation my only good friends The only known feelings that fill up my days Apathy prevails in a life of routine Nothing's exciting, nothing is worth Self-destructive spirit, heavy drugs abuse My brain is slowly dying, i'm just an empty shell Can't find something to fill the empty abyss of my soul Never try to change my fate, i've lost every control - no Always stabbed in the back by the people that i trusted Any sort of good feeling is forbidden to my soul Where the fuck is god, where the fuck has gone his mercy Why he never gave me strength to heal my scars and keep on going Where the fuck is family, where the fuck is love Where the fuck has gone my long forgotten peace of mind? I'll never see the end of this perennial darkness I'll never see again the colors of life There's no fucking god, there's no love no friends no family Nothing more to say, only one thing left to do Leave it all behind, put the bullet in the gun My life has come to an end, i'm feeling happiness again I will just pull the trigger and enjoy my final blow